A Year ago I was doing amazing at my goal to be a healthier me. I was eating better and working out ALOT! Or At least a lot for myself. Then I fell off the wagon again. next I went 30 plus days eating only 24 grams or less of added sugar I can’t tell you how amazing I felt. My Chronic pain was gone and Life was great. Then I got a promotion and I’ve now been kind of focused on learning and developing myself in the work world. Well…….. Chronic Pain has been creeping back until I wound up in the hospital again …..Crazy Pain no answers So I knew I had to change the way I ate or it would be a long road of pain and pain meds. So Naturally I went home after a few days of eating super healthy and then BAM I pigged out on nothing but junk food and sweets. I mean I ate 5 krispy kreme doughnuts in one night after eating TGIFs endless apps and steak and ribs!!!!!!!!!! That lasted about a week and I finally came to grips with the idea i have to really truly make a change in my lifestyle and I planned out food for the week and cooked for hours meal prepping.
I took food to work and ate everything like planned when I look over and the easter basket I got all my staff was sitting there with a few random left over bite size candy bars.. I debate it and finally cave I grabbed one with caramel and nuts!!! YUMMY!!! So Delicious just what I deserve for all this admin work I’ve been doing.
2 mins later…………… Oh My god I’m so Fat How could I eat that horribly? I mean really I’ve Failed again. So might as well eat an apple fritter because they smell so good warmed and I already destroyed my diet….WHOA!!!!!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!!! How did this happen? I didn’t destroy anything it was one bite! How can one little bite have so much power over me? To throw in the towel on my health? Then I start to think about all the other times I gave up. Once was when I ate 2 cookies at my first manager meeting because I didn’t want them to think I was rude and also because I mean home made cookies.. Why not when I’ve been off sugar for over 30 days…. Well the next few days I convinced myself i destroyed my eating habits so why shouldn’t I eat anything I want know. It was like A Drug Binge but my drug of choice is unhealthy food. Maybe the Problem I have is that I see treats as Weapons of Mass Destruction. Not As something that is allowed every once in a while. I mean I was more healthy then I ever have been and I let 2 cookies destroy all of that. So I hope the fact that I’m owning my little nibble I took today and Know that it’s just a small treat in a day full of Zucchini, Tomatoes, Spinach, Sweet Potatoes, Pine Apple , Honey Crisp apples and Strawberries . plus a few healthy proteins so why not reward being good all day with just a tiny little nibble ? My Goal is to stop letting one bite have so much control over me.
Losing 100 lbs plus 