In my Early twenties I lost my Dad. He was an amazing man that made people laugh and always treated people with love and kindness. He was my all time favorite person. What Can i say I was a daddy’s girl still am. When he passed we were fighting which we NEVER did I mean NEVER but I was so mad at him for not taking my side on a fight that my mom and I had. I don’t even remember what the fight was about. I just knew that my dad took my moms side and not mine so I was Super UPSET with him so when Fathers day rolled around I decided I would go out and party with my friends instead of spending it with him. I didn’t know then that would be the last fathers day I had to spend with him. I didn’t realize that he would die later that year. Sadly he did. Something I will never truly be over. Some days are easy and some are hard. Well Today has been soooo hard. Normally the hard days are special occasions you know holidays , On my wedding day , E first birthday all of these things make me miss him and wish he was here. Well Yesterday my Fathers all time favorite Actor Passed away. I know the world is mourning Mr Robin Williams and So is my family we all are so upset it’s like losing my father all over again. I can’t stop crying it’s been raining like crazy and just not feeling like doing anything. Being a Mom means I don’t have a choice about doing stuff I get up and I try and play with E and make her happy and go through the motions. It’s not easy as I rock her for her nap and sing I can’t help but think of what my dad would say about her and how much she would love him. Not only that but how much he would love her. Today is a day of tears. Puffy Eyes and Just sadness.
I did do my 15 min of yoga day 2 of the challenge I plan on going for a run when the rain stops. Maybe that will help my mood.
Please Hug the ones you love and tell them how much they mean to you. Forgive the silly fights that you wont even remember later on. Say Yes when they ask you out for diner. You just never know when you wont have that opportunity again
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