A Reality CHECK!!!!

 

So the Scale is starting to creep up again.  Huh!!!  So That Sucks. I mean aren’t we all a little upset when what took us 3 weeks to lose comes back on in less than a week?!?!?!?  Well I’ve been Active.   I actually just wrote about how I’ve only taken 3 days of rest in the last 39 days!   So that’s not the problem!  So The reality is my Diet SUCKS!!!  I’ve been super emotional eating lately.  We just passed the 10 year anniversary of my dad passing away, Robin Williams passing and  the one year mark of My brother in Laws girl friend passing.  It’s been a bad few days.  I’ve tried to find happiness in the bottom of a Edy’s Ice Cream Tub!! I mean my thought processes was ok as long as I run or exercise I’ll Be ok.  WRONG!!!!!!   I haven’t burned that many calories!  So I figured I would look at the food I’ve been eating the last few days and make a healthy and unhealthy list

Yesterday

Healthy

1. Vanilla Almond Milk
2. oatmeal (old Fashion)
3. sm baked potato
4. low fat turkey bacon sandwich (Starbucks)

 

UNHEALTHY

1.  Petite Vanilla Scones (starbucks)
2. chocolate Cake Pop (starbucks)
3. iced grande whole milk Iced coffee with Carmel Drizzle (starbucks)
4. bbq chips
5. ham and swiss panini
6. chick-fil-a original sandwhich
7. butter (for my potato)
8. petite vanilla scone (had 2)
9. hamburger helper

 

Ok 4 Sorta Healthy Things and 9  NOT HEALTHY OPTIONS!!!!   Ok So now I see what went wrong.  So lets look at what i’ve done here.  I mean really.  There isn’t ANY VEGETABLES OR FRUIT!!! AT ALL!!!!!  Nothing really that healthy just some sort of healthy options.  So With that being said.   Today My goal is to have More HEALTHY!!! things and less UNHEALTHY options. 

Day 37: Day of Tears

In my Early twenties I lost my Dad. He was an amazing man that made people laugh and always treated people with love and kindness. He was my all time favorite person. What Can i say I was a daddy’s girl still am. When he passed we were fighting which we NEVER did I mean NEVER but I was so mad at him for not taking my side on a fight that my mom and I had. I don’t even remember what the fight was about. I just knew that my dad took my moms side and not mine so I was Super UPSET with him so when Fathers day rolled around I decided I would go out and party with my friends instead of spending it with him. I didn’t know then that would be the last fathers day I had to spend with him. I didn’t realize that he would die later that year. Sadly he did. Something I will never truly be over. Some days are easy and some are hard. Well Today has been soooo hard. Normally the hard days are special occasions you know holidays , On my wedding day , E first birthday all of these things make me miss him and wish he was here. Well Yesterday my Fathers all time favorite Actor Passed away. I know the world is mourning Mr Robin Williams and So is my family we all are so upset it’s like losing my father all over again. I can’t stop crying it’s been raining like crazy and just not feeling like doing anything. Being a Mom means I don’t have a choice about doing stuff I get up and I try and play with E and make her happy and go through the motions. It’s not easy as I rock her for her nap and sing I can’t help but think of what my dad would say about her and how much she would love him. Not only that but how much he would love her. Today is a day of tears. Puffy Eyes and Just sadness.
I did do my 15 min of yoga day 2 of the challenge I plan on going for a run when the rain stops.  Maybe that will help my mood.

 

Please Hug the ones you love and tell them how much they mean to you. Forgive the silly fights that you wont even remember later on. Say Yes when they ask you out for diner. You just never know when you wont have that opportunity again